the wrong TIME

this NY has started strangely. strangely for me. i really didn't want it to start. that year NY was really at the wrong time 'cause we hadn't made up with all our things and lots of bad stuff came with us in this 2012 year. how suprisingly. i'd never thought that it would happen again. and it hurts. ohmyGod how it hurts. i really can't look at IT. tears are in my eyes all the time when i listen, hear or just look at IT. please, God, help to go through IT. i do trust YOU and want IT to be done away with ASAP